Did i? shd i?

erm~ many thinking appear recently, but din wrote down so forget already~~
haha~~~ juz let me tell u wat my view~~~
in dec 2006, my colluegue tell me that girl who go KL study will change slightly or a lot~ ( do u understand wat change he meant? u noe la~~ hehe~~)
i ask y, but i forgot wat he said~ i still remember wat i thinking tat time~
i told myself, i dun thk i will change~ reason?? erm~ self confidence~~ in tat time~

jan 2007, i go kl, setapak UTAR, persue my degree~ Quatity surveying~
at tat time i dun even noe wat is tat course about, haha~~~ coz is not my 1st choice~ but believe in fate~ so i carry on~ wif my "close fren" haha~~ since form 1 noeing her till now, form 2 start sit beside me, do u think "close" enuff?? ya~ she really my gd fren, n my roomate lo~
the day wif our family~ take the red bus, lrt, taxi, reach the condo "melati utama", tat time is my 3rd time go kl~ so brave~ oni noe TBR n MU, wangsa n genting klang langsung tak denger b4~~
haha~~~
1st nite~ the lousy digi line hv no connection~ 2 little poor girl~ oni thing to do is chating over nite~ haiz~~~ so bored~ i din cry at all~ but i thk she cry at nite, cover with blanket~
wat on my mind tat time? i juz dun thk n keep try as fast to get along wif my new place, new begins... so, can say i'm brave girl n strong mind~ i think i doing quite good~
1st day in utar~ try to make new frenz~ try to get our timetable, juz new for us.
1st sem in utar~ 2 girl wif no entertaiment, oni things to do is chating overnite... analize our new fren character, our studies, our family~ i sharing every information i noe.

" something is not suitable to tell u" BOOM~~ haha~ i muz say tiz sentence i will remember quite a long time~ not bcoz i angry~ is bcoz this sentence let me noe that my character is not so trustable~ quite sad actually~
dear all frenz~ if u not believe me, then dun tell me ur secret~ most of the time i will tell to annother frenz~ is true~ i admit~ not bcoz me is sampat~ is bcoz i not pandai in keeping secret~ but if u added "tiz is secret" then i wont say~
i'm a silly girl~ is true~ i ez trust ppl which i consider is my gd frenz~ ez get hurt bcoz backstab by "frenz"~ ez let ppl noe wat in my mind~ quite stupid really~
1st sem~ my result is not gd~ 2.74~ i also dunno y? juz dun hv a special "ability" call "lucky", quite hurt~ i cant accept it, bcoz i really thk i can do it better~ haha~ is bcoz of something i too care, tats y my result will become tiz~
1st sem~ gain new frenship~ can i trust them? y not? juz be frenz~ haha~~ remember the wednesday gathering in green box~ eating in pizza hut~ happy valentine wif them~ haha~ i remember tat nite i tell ah kit "hope my next yr valentine is not wif u" haha~ hey~ i really not mean i can get a lover, is i mean he can get a lover, now he really did, also steal away my accompany~ walao ei~~ next time i dun wan say anything liao~ so "zhun" lo~ haha~~~
sunway trip~ wif tatoo gang~ i remember i terkejut by ah tao~ bcoz his stupid hand makes me carry rm500 to petaling street~ my buddha~ i really cried out lo~ ( for ur information, i never carry so much money b4, n worst go petaling street fomous in kes curi n ragut) n then later i heard my gang frenz all also kena terkejut by me~ scared me really cry lo~ haha~~~ sorry sorry~ tiz is me la~

2nd sem~ tough sem for me~ cry a lot~ but oso gain few frenz which i really can trust n reliable~
nobody believe me cry n get hurt by other~ but once u really noe me~ u will noe i'm not so tough n can hold my tears, i juz a girl~ a girl who need frenz support wen i was down~
2nd sem~ still go sing k wif crazy qs gang~ now my singing is consider ok lo~ haha~~~ love sing k~ u noe~ really like~
2nd sem~ wif the mindset fight for 3.0, my result really quite gd~ 3.12~~ u noe, i really really happy wif tiz b4 i noe 3 coursemate score 3.6 above~~ sien~~ r they really human?? y they can score so high? haiz~~~the time i noe my result~ the joy i tried to share wif all the person i care~ but in chinese idiom " a pot cold water" somebody juz simply "yaya, so, Mm, good lo~" then tat time i shd noe, not all ppl will share my joy as their joy too~ i shd noe~ not all ppl wan u share ur joy wif them~ i shd noe, not all ppl care u as u care them....

holiday, i shd said is annother learning chance 4 me~ wif ppl already success in their life, i learn a lot~ by the working environment i learn upgrade my eq is 1st criteria i muz hv to hv the chance of success~
holiday, i gain bck a frenship tat i abort 4 yrs d~ actually~ if u ask me y? y we quarrel tat time? y i wan tiz frenship bck? i can oni say is bcoz my childish, i dun treat mon petit as fren anymore that time. y i wan tiz frenship? bcoz i finally understand the taste being ignore by someone~
i dun wan i regret in life~ tat time i said, NO, bcoz i believe i wont regret, now i said YES, bcoz i believe i will regret~~ haha~~~

my 1st yr pass d~ do u thk i change? for sure will change la~ haha~~ my mind also change~ my thinking also difference~ do i become bad?? erm, i will said the same, no~ i'm not tat kind children where parent cant control u then turn bad~ My believe is even no ppl control me, i shd control myself~ i wont turn bad~ bcoz i'm have enuff mature n understand wat is most suit me~ n good to me~ those will not make me more gd i wont do~ 21st d~ no longer little girl which cannot tahan other ppl persua lo~

Now, Feb 2008. live happy, stay lovely, become pretty~~ ya, true i never fall in love, never hv admirer~ but still~ i happy wif wat i hv now~ with positive thinking~ i will success in my life~ no matter wat i am in future~ i strongly believe my family, my frenz will give me their support~ will believe in me~ will not betray me~ love u all.