雾水姻缘。。。

可怜啊。。。 我的手机吊饰才买不到一个月啊。。。 就这样掉了。。。 伤心， 只能说没缘份啦， 还能怎样？
那链是自己买的， 自己选喜欢的饰品挂上去的， RM13哦， 我选的是K跟可爱的钥匙， 因为觉得21岁了， 买把钥匙给自己， 哈哈。。。 但是， 掉了， 难过。 现在经过那条路还是会走慢一点， 会低头找一找。。。 怎么可能找到嘛，唉！ 当然你们会叫我再买条一样的， 可是那还是另一条啊， 就不是我原本的啊。 是不是想说我死心眼？ 对我就是那么固执， 如果我认为那是我的原则， 那是我的底线，就没有人有办法说服我了。 死脑筋。。。

我遗失的宝贝。
我也想过啊， 这样会不会太容易被人打啊？或则被误会， 但是我改不到啊， 起码现在还不行， 怎么办呢？ 我真的改很多了， 因为我的好朋友都知道， 我脾气很冲， 如果不爽， 就会直接开骂， 现在很少了， 除非我很累， 然后对方又一直挑衅， 就会爆炸咯。。。
最近小考跟assignment， 快一个月没回家了， 妈妈开始念了， 可是没办法， 我真的不能回， 回家只顾看戏， 讲话， 哪会做功课呢？ 而且这个学期， 真的没读书， 我承认， 哈哈。。。 没办法啊， 我的藉口就是累， 然后就把死狗搬出来讲咯，哈哈。。。 想它， 还是想它， 看到朋友小狗跟旺旺长很像， 就会难过， 没办法啊， 死脑筋啊。。。
朋友说我讲话喜欢兜圈， 哈哈。。 对啊， 我就是这样不直接， 这是多年社交经验养成的， 为什么？ 因为怕得罪人， 怕人误会，怕伤人啊。。。 是这样的啦， 当你被人误会惯了， 就会跟我一样把自己的用词捉很紧， 明明是类似的意思，但就是会重复很多遍，以我的字眼。。。 当你的用词伤过太多人，你就会开始用婉转的词汇了。
今天， 又有触到我的地雷的事了，我怎样解决？除了向好朋友念个不停， 发泄后， 我就算了， 不然能怎样？
跟对方理论吗？ 我不想了， 理论是没结果的， 我常说人都认为自己是对的， 谁会觉得他有错呢？ 我也常说不要为自己找太多理由， 别人自会觉得你再找借口。。。 说，是说给自己听的， 因为提醒自己别更其他人一样犯错， 因为不想跟别人一样。 我。。 怀疑自己做到了吗？
看开， 是为了对自己好，是为了让自己开心点， 是为了让自己好过一点。 如果我不再执著我的固执， 我就更轻松了， 我。。 做得到吗？ 妈妈长江我学学我的好姐妹， 没错， 他真的什么都不计较， 好的，坏的， 他都觉得过了就算了， 他常说我“佳慧，做么你要管酱多？“ "ignorance is a bliss" 当我最不开心的时候， 他这么提醒我。 好久没跟他联络了，一直碰不上。。。 不过我不怕友谊变质， 因为没可能变了， 我和他， 就是那么的要好， 忙归忙， 我相信彼此都关心着对方， 那就够了。
昨晚， 有个朋友说我的心善良， 就像水晶球一样。哈哈， 不敢当， 我只是不想管了， 就随便吧， 不计较。 觉得自己有双重性格， 有时大方，有时小气。 我的藉口嘛。。。 就是别触碰我的底线，万事好商量。。。
最近，很糊涂， 别问我为什么，我也不知道，我只能用藉口告诉你：“人生难得糊涂。。。“

Inner Peace

something happen, something i wont forget in rest of my life. something i dun wish to say anymore.
im so full, by eating death cat, all the while~ nvm, is not 1st time, im mature girl, wont do childish things already. u give, i swallow. thats all.
if u r my frenz, if u r believe me, plz continue trust me, i really losing confidence.

"everything is gonna be all right" my frenz courage me wif tiz song.
im really ok, it juz a side effect, after all.

For my doggy...

看了“导盲犬小Q" 跟“心动奇迹“， 我是故意看的， 因为我会想起你。 人总是失去后才会珍惜， 我后悔没好好照顾你， 我一直在想， 如果我没找借口， 如果我没偷懒， 勤劳的帮你冲凉， 多陪你一会儿， 你可能还在我身边打转。
一直以为你可以陪我到毕业， 乖乖的等我， 不是说好要健健康康的吗？骗人的， 死狗！ 真是笨到死， 叫你等我， 你尽然等却不等完， 只让我见你最后一目， 却不让我陪你。 怎么这么笨啊！！！
现在的我，不喜欢在后面房跟厨房， 更不会走到后门， 都是你害的！ 我快疯了， 竟然会幻听到你的铁链声， 哈哈。。。
虽然说， 这就是人生； 虽然说， 我还有乐乐； 虽然说， 你走的很安详。
但是， 你是我的宝贝， 我们之间的回忆， 是乐乐不能代替你的，是不会被遗忘的， 是不可能重来的。
我想你， 也许没陪你走最后一程， 是我的遗憾， 也可能是愧疚， 因为我害怕你会走得更早， 我是故意迟回的。
我好无聊哦， 你都不是人， 又笨， 写部落格你都不懂。。。 我为什么还写？ 为一想到的借口， 就是我想让大家知道我曾经有只笨狗， 它叫- 旺旺。

我和狗狗的10个约定

电影：我和狗狗的10个约定。。。 最感同身受的就是最后一个约定。。。

1、在你带我回家之前，请记住我的寿命有10~15年，你的遗弃，会是我最大的痛苦。 2、请给我一点时间，让我了解你对我的要求是什么。 3、信赖我对我很重要。 4、别对我生气太久，也别把我关起来当惩罚，你有你的工作，你有你的朋友，但我只有你。 5、请偶尔对我说说话，纵使我听不懂你说的内容，但我听得懂，那时你的声音在陪伴我。 6、你要知道无论你如何对待我，我将永远不会忘记。 7、当你打我时请记住，我其实拥有可以咬碎你手骨的尖锐牙齿，只是我选择不咬。 8、当你责骂我的不合作、固执或者懒惰之前，请你想想是否有什么正困扰着我，或许我没有获得我应该有的食物，我已经很久没有在温暖的阳光下奔跑，抑或我的心脏已经太弱或太老。 9、在我年老时，请你好好照顾我，因为你也会变老。 10、当我要走过最辛苦的历程时，千万别对我说，“我不忍看他”或“等我不在场再发生”，只要有你和我在一起，所有的事情都变得简单易接受，请你永远不要忘记---我爱你！！

Eye on Malaysia--June 15

yoyo~~ finally i can online in kl d~ so so so~~~ happy~ haha~
tell u all~ i manage go tmn tasik titiwangsa on june 15, bcoz my hsmate cute gf coming~ n then 4 of us after dinner going there by motor~~ wah~ is my 3rd or 4th times by motor lo~ but not scared d~ juz really cant let my hand away from the hand holder at bck~ kena marah sia~~ haha~ my hsmate complaint will be laugh by others lo~ but so sorry~ cant let go la!!
then we juz cant let go the chance go up the top of the kl~ to view the full scene~ so~ we spend rm15 go up~~ haha~~

haha~~ never thought i will spend the money for the 15++ min, about 5-6 round~ haha......
very very happy~ it used to be 1 of my wishes~

then on the 26th june~ the day of ptptn released~ i was in pasar malam wif hsmate, smudge told me this news~ then i tell me hsmate, i wan go ask the price for my new hp~ which i plan to buy since i was in form 6~ few yrs passed, finally i brought k800i wif 1gb memory card in rm650~ woah!! i so excited~ haha~~~ finally success buy~ hurray!!!
my june pass very happy n memorable~ haha~~~ will updated soon~ c ya!!

My Short break in May~

hohoho~~ my long lost fren always demand me update my blog~~ very fierce lo!! she said she really wan scold #$%@ haha~~~
lets go bckward, i tell u my short break 3 weeks i doing wat ba!!

my semester exam end on 2 maY~ n very lucky i start work in besta again on 3rd may~ haha~~ so much pressure tiz time~ coz got 12 part timer in the same time~ u noe how scared i am? i scared if i not perform well then die liao lo~ haha~ (very lose face) haha~

they all r 1988 fellows~ except karen & ghia yee~~ but i kena bully by them~ haiz~ (no la~ kidding oni) they really help besta upgrade the product a lot~ i really suprise by their works lo~ haha~
too bad i cant show u all my works~ haha~ or u all go buy besta la~ then can c my work~ also support nicholas la!!

on my very last day~ i asking them take a photo with me~ but all not very interest in ley~ so sad~~~ then tiz the result lo~ u c especially the guys~ macam~ really dislike take photo sia~~~



happy time with them~ hope they successfully get the course they want~~~

then~ i have sometime with those pelangian~ they organize the celebration for MAY n JUNE bday babies~ u noe wat~~ tiz time i get the photo very fastly ley!!! haha~ coz ah wong send it fast lo~
















Actually is quite a num of photo la~ but other photo all show my weakness very clearly, so i refuse to post up~ haha~~~ tiz the best photo lo~~

Special note: on tiz three weeks, i cant meet my dearest fren, RACHEL. she busy with her duty to take care more patient~ haha~ n i wan mention, she miss her bday celebration too~ hahaha~~~

my holiday is happy~ got ppl ask me, y juz 3 weeks i wan work ley? is bcoz i wan earn $$, i wan earn experience in life, and i get some bonus.... i earn the new frenships...... haha~~~

the biggest event in MAY for juzme life will be my doggy "wangwang" passed away..... haiz~
no need to ask, i was very sad tat time, n i noe i wont forget my baby doggy~ BUT as i said, life goes on~ so nth to said~ haha~~~

thats all 4 today~ gd nitez~

Gone~~

ya~~ a stupid girl spend rm48, skip 2 days class, travel from kl to jb, to take care the few days refused eating de damn dog..... then~ on the day she bck~ the dog died.
She make a promise with the dog " muz wait her bck, muz get well b4 she bck"
wat can she said? oni can say the idiot dog dunno wat is a promise.
haiz~~~ the dog juz pass its 11 yrs old bday~ (if she not wrong)
she manage to c it b4 bury.....
she noe the dog is peaceful and without pain while its pass away.... then tats is enuff......
Life goes on....
doggy, thx for accompany me 11 yrs.

学习

学习什么？
我要学会割舍， 学会放弃， 学会不计较， 学会大方。
为什么要学？
为了让自己活得开心点。
为了让自己别在死心眼。
哈哈。。。 我啊。。。 难咯。。。
超介意的咯！！ 不想说明。。。
就这样啦， 不说了。。。

do u feel it too?

最近， 天灾就有两宗， 缅甸风灾， 四川地震。 同样夺取上万人的性命。 对地震比较有印象， 因为看到新闻报道， 看着灾民受困灾区， 看着报道说明那建筑物本是一所学校， 说困的多是中一，中二生。随着时间流逝， 抬出来的是一具又一具的尸体， 看到遗体而哭天抢地的父母，如此悲烈， 而且中国的政策下， 那是家庭中唯一的孩子。一场无预紧的天灾， 夺取了他们的唯一宝贝， 要他们如何面对？

今天看到报道， 一个灾区指挥官说了如此伤感的话：“我连我母亲也顾不上救了， 快救学生。” 他宁愿让自己这一辈子内疚， 自责。 为的就是救那些拥有明天的人。 （母亲已近八十几的高龄了）

身在无天灾的国家的我们， 你作何感想？

突然又想到陈奕讯的月黑风高， “下一代 我们再我们再唉声叹气
在沼泽里无能为力 想不到为什么会在这里，又想去那里。。。”

有时真的觉得自己连悲观的权利也没有， 和那一些连生存都是需要努力， 坚持， 等待他人的帮忙。 我们如何允许自己自爱自怜？？

倒塌的医院， 最需要帮手的地方， 都是生命啊， 刚出生的婴儿， 伤者， 看了真的不忍。

那些养尊处优的，总会为了些小事而生气， 懊恼， 不能谅解他人， 为自己找借口， 为自己的错误， 为自己的缺点怪罪其他人， 暗中伤害他人的人。

去看一看那些等待救援的人， 那些失去亲人的人， 那些步行到灾区给于帮助的人， 那些空降到灾区的士兵！ 思考一下， 你的人生， 有什么事， 你有什么资格悲观？ 你有什么理由生气？你凭什么？

我们应该庆幸， 珍惜拥有的， 除此之外， 想一想， 别再以自己为中心， 别总认为自己是对的， 听取他人的意见， 在你还有别人的意见可听时。 在你不是为生存而挣扎中， 在你还拥有时。。。

Mix~~~

1st: My Blog update!!

yaya~ update now~ although i really no idea yet~haha~~~
due to the stress give by mon petit~ i muz update my blog~ haha~~
she suggest me write my love story~~ but rejected by me~ coz i no love story to tell u all~
( but i can always create 1 for u all, if u all have the interest.....)
so she suggest me write my opinion in life~ but i dunno wat i recently create the opinion~ so cant also~
then she said write ur working life lo~ erm~ but due to "p & c" of the company~ n my lazyness~
i rejected oso~~~
so? wat i will write?? haha~~~
u continue view my blog lo~~~~ then u figure out wat i thk, wat i say lo~

2nd My View
MONEY
i'm a girl that will be very happy bcoz brought a very cheap jacket~ (RM7.9 if i not mistake).
i'm a girl that willing to spend money to treat my frenz pizza~~~ ( but they insist payback~ the person give me $$ still kena my hot temper, so sorry~~~)
i'm a girl that will scold the pontianak sch rampas my sch fee~~ (RM4672 next sem)
i'm a girl that will keep calculate my OT claim reach how many~
i'm a girl that will write down my everyday expenses~~
my money view is~ "i dun care how much it spend, but i do care how much it worth".....

ATTITUDE
I'm used to be a hot temper ppl, easy get angry if u break my rules.
BUT now~ is rare i will angry ppl......
i'm not a patient ppl~ but now~ everyone feel strange how ca i still remain calm.....
i'm used to be a serious ppl, now still the same~
serious~ serious in work~ force myself finish task ASAP, even ot ( of coz i like ot, got pay de ley~~), rare u can c me snake in office~
serious in studies, (i really hope can get 1st or 2nd upper in degree)
serious in life ( everyday shd live happily to not regret sumthgs)
serious in love....... never have bf.... ( all rite, i admit lah!! is nobody wan me la!) sien....

LIFE
my philosophy~
~~"do everything u thk is rite, care everyone u thk is worth"
~~thk b4 u do anythgs, do the thgs u mind regret in future, dun regret after u do.
~~if u regret, juz thk again wat is the best way~ then adjust n do again.....
~~keep telling others ur sadness wont help u get off of sadness. but do help u in confirm u already get off......
~~ wen ppl doing sumthing that u unable to accept, dun judge them but do thk from their side b4 u get mad...... coz everyone hv diff. opinion, is not all ppl same wif u~
~~ wen ppl purposely annoying u~ juz ignore them~~ coz the level is dif bet. u n them~~~

haha~~ tats wat i recently doing, thking la~~ really no idea 4 blog lo~ but yet still so many things to write~ haha~~~ i always try to be the nice person, but not everyone thk i'm nice~ haha~~
weird~ i like the thgs might be totaly diff~ juz like i like arvil lagvine but i like MLTR......
contrast gua~~ juz as i said b4~ "dun even said u noe me too well, dun judge me by ur ruler b4 u really understand me~~ "

大笑三声的回忆

突然发觉第一次用华语写这个的部落格， 哈哈。。。 还是没差别啊， 最近啊， 过得不错啊。
跟那班疯子闹， 心情满开朗的， 看完“原来我不帅”， 笑翻了。。。 小庄努力为自己制造能大笑三声的回忆。 我也有吧？ 哈哈。。。。
还有很多照片。。。。 哈哈~~~
读书嘛。。。 希望能帮他们考好好， 也希望我自己考更好， 哈哈~~ “人不为己，天诛地灭！” 哈哈。。。。。
一定要提一提， 上次没通知好pelangian我回kl 的时间， 害他们白跑一趟， 真的真的很过意不去。。。。 对不起啦。。。。
这次我回来多几天啊！ 哈哈。。。。
没灵感， 不写了。。。

Me again~~~

rainning outside~
so come in computer lab gain back so $$ hehe~~~
no la~ juz wan tell everyone~ i already 1 month din bck home~ i miz home now~
home sick~~ seriously~ so very emotional~ i thk~~~ i can cry anytime, anywhere wif my feel now.
about my genting trip~ haha~ extra fun~ 1st time get drunk!! n worst is juz drink oni 3 to 4 cup~~ haha~~~ they all sick gamblers~ haha~~ spend so much inside casino~~ and even in hotel room still gambling by using liquor~~~
a lot pic, actually~ next time la~ din save in my pendrive.
actually i living happy rite now, true~ with no thought to those unhappy things, wif a lot of nice frenz~ wif a lot of presentation~
who will believe that a person which be MC, pembahasan, syarahan, ucapan~ yet always get nervous on every presentation?? haha~~~ haiz~~~ but tiz is fate la~ by lucky draw, even worst trick my group member d yet still get the "chance of presentation"~~~
n i enjoy my uni life. always go red box, green box, anywhere as long as we plan~ haha~~~
part of the reason that i think my singing getting better~ hehe~~~
muz mention~ thx jean, evol n mon petit always come view my blog~~~ very sorry i no time view urs 1 by 1~~ hehe~~ next time la~ n~ hey~ i thk i can bck next week or next next week~ 5 me go kai kai on saturday ok?? haha~~~

have fun~~

ya~ me again~ in pc lab~ haiz~ thursday muz summit assignment~ today later go genting!~ haha~ not yet rest enuff since last last week go pai en UM hostel having fun with yam cha with a gang bio scientis and then last week go seremban for assignment photo shooting~ then today go genting play wor~~~ haha~~~ but weird~ mummy allow~~

die die la~~~ so much activity!~ really crazy gang~~ haha~~~
but hope will be extraordinary fun la tiz trip~~~ haha~~~

HAVE FUN~
due to assignment again~ end blog here~ hehe~~

Wat a waste~~

now~ 27th FEB 2.10pm~ i at UTAR FES computer lab~ fully utilized my RM4705 "donation" 2 pontianak~ juz go few frenz blog comment~ maybe some fren wonder y i missing since CNY~~
haiz~~ long story~ juz cut in short words~ my selfish ex0hsmate cut off my lousy network connection~ therefore i so long din appear in msn n my lovely baby~ haha~~~
with due date tomolo, assignment~ i not yet finish~ but coming bloggy~ really can scold me d~ i noe~ in excuse of need to search the material of assignment~ spending RM3.20 transport fee~ to this air-con lab~ cool~~~
let me juz simply describe my life in KL tiz few weeks~ ( coz assignment not yet finish~~)

wat a waste?
i brought a second-hand fridge which i have been waiting a year~~~ RM370~~~
izzit a waste?

wat a waste?
roomate moving out, no newcomer, need to stay alone, RM230 monthly rent fee.
izzit a waste?

wat a waste?
quarrel with frenz or juz keep silence?

wat a waste?
calm down even feel very angry after listening some RIDICULOUS excuses, choose to ignore it.
izzit a waste?

wat a waste?
waste time on angry someone which dun even care ur feeling? OR juz focus on study n person who really care me?

tiz time~ due to need to do assignment, n start feel cold~
i stop my blog till here~
do u all noe wat the life i live in KL d?
do u all believe i actually bulied by other?
do u all really care me n believe my personality?
i hope u all will. happy living~

Lovely CNY 2008

leave pelangi sch so many yrs d, but still able meet each other once a yr is a fortunate~
yala~ we all noe is bcoz the ang pow la~~ haha~~~
1st day of CNY they already dinner in samuel hs (our big boss), but i din join la~ coz i prefer eat with my family~
2nd day they date again go movie CJ7, n i heard they already goin few frens hs "bai nian" d~
me juz bck from pontian then join them 4 movie~ got boss, lady boss, twei, wong, evol, rachel, arron, mon petit, yu n me~ 10 ppl wor~~~ tiz few fellow we always c la nth special~ but in leisure mall, we met our senior gang, erm they change quite a lot haha~~~ all become pretty n handsome lo~~
then go our "merah highland" start the "business" u noe~ haha~~~ playing blackjack all the nite~~~ n i so lucky hv a title "blackjack queen" hohoho~~~ but rachel, boss n yu not so lucky lo~ but i thk the most bad luck is yu lo~ juz a player also lose haha~~~ rachel n boss "sacrifice" their $$ to be banker, hehe~~ nvm la~ u all start earn $$ d~~~ play till 3am morning~ very chiok ley~~~
3rd day, i tot no more date, who noes our pretty girl may jean wan start her business ( not gambling la) she start "bai nian" collect ang pao~~ i'm her 1st passenger~ then we go mon petit hs, tiz is my 1st time visit her hs after renovation. n also after 4 yrs visit her mother~ hehe~ auntie dun rmb me liao lo~~ haha~~~ then wen she noe who i am she say "so many yrs d, u still so fat" erm~~ ya la~ her daughter dunno wats wrong slim down so much~~ me really no much dif lo~ haha~~
then 3 girl go twei hs~ the guys( marcus, malcolm, wong) already there n waiting our "special guest" jason<--- he already 1 yr din bck jb~~ really kena sabo badly~ haha~~~ then chating bck our forum~ y tiba tiba occur "lavander boss", then reload M-16, n many more nossense haha~~~
then go bck my hs~ add up boss, lady boss, nurse n cop~ haha~~~ quite suprise my mother rmb them all~ haha~~
then go yu hs~ muz mention, his sis de skin very very pure n perfact lo~ envy~~~
then go M & M hs~ hahaha~ bcoz v haven hv conclusion eat at where~~ haha~~~ big M drop us n go 5 his beloved lo~~ then we 13 ppl( +evol la, he miss a lot fun d, hehe~) go tmn molek eat a barbeque restoran~ (erm, lazy describe, for more information, plz log on to http://m0npetit.blogspot.com/ she will give u the full detail on food~ haha~~~)
after dinner, we decide go only 100m away from jusco terbau city jason hs~~ now we noe wats the actual length of 100m~ haha~~~ a lot joke occur but they will oni pelangi kaki will understand~ so i dun mention at here~~~
then go bck "merah highland" waiting boss~~~ then the business till 5am~~ wah~~ really crazy lo~~~ haha~~~~
Muz mention v got 4 car in tiz 1 day trip, juz as mon petit say seems like wedding fetch bride~~~ ya~ then i start thinking, if 1 of us get marry, will all the gang join togather? will we juz like today? 4 car follow? 2008~ all already 22~ but still young to get marry~ but too old to be single~ but tiz doesn't mean all the single muz be togather as couple~~ haha~ tiz yr sam n rachel bring their partner, next yr will it be more ppl join tiz? can we comfirm our next yr trip? can we say the 3rd day of CNY is pelangi day? will all frenz join?
a person tell me b4, frenz if get along then is frenz, if not then no lo~
my opinion is frenz if i care u & u care me then is frenz, if i care u, u dun care me then no lo~
wat is care? care wen i manage 5 u wen i need ur care. care wen u cant 5 me but still ask other how i am. care no matter good or bad happen, u will noe eventually bcoz we r frenz.